It's a never ending cycle. He hurts me. I remove him from all my instant messenger lists. I eventually cave and message him. I always tell myself it'll be the last time. It never is. I'm telling myself that I'm determined for this time to be the last, but I'm afraid it's just going to keep happening.
The only time I can write well is late at night. I've been sacrificing most of what little sleep I get so that I can write.
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I need to take control of my life. I need to push myself. I need to learn things. I need to explore. However I am just too scared.
bi black sensitive insensitive liberal open minded caring funny
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtKUtsJv_xU
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within.
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength it is fading,
I have to give in.
It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom
I am the bump you never get over. Good luck, though. Can't say I'll miss you.
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I'm the girl who you'll never get over, and the girl who'll never get over you.
Whoop whoop!
I'm the girl who's too scared and not interested in doing anything with her life!
bi black sensitive insensitive liberal open minded caring funny
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtKUtsJv_xU
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within.
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength it is fading,
I have to give in.
It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my faith is horror and doom
I confess that I did something really stupid the other day that could really damage my reputation, and I almost don't care. I don't mind if anyone knows, except my dad. I would hate if my dad found out, because I don't want him thinking that I'm really like that.
I confess that my dad sent me an email this morning telling me how great I am, and how proud he is of me, and I haven't been able to stop crying from shame since I read it. I'm not the amazing daughter he sees. I'm not the little girl he thinks I am anymore. 2 hours crying, and counting.
This is all going to make a great first impression on my new psychiatrist -.-
Last edited by ~AdrienneElizabeth.; 04-27-2010 at 01:08 PM. Reason: Needed to add a few words.
Whoop whoop!
I wish I was young again.
I wouldn't feel so ashamed if I was.
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